"she just has bad ears!"

it has been a while so here is a recap!

On January 30th baby girl had tubes replaced in her ears and adenoids removed. The procedures went well. Sophie is not a good patient, screaming when someone in scrubs does even as little as look in her direction! She is tough as nails though! The let us go after about a hour in recovery, she had pulled out her IV and would not let them put the monitor on to check heart rate or blood oxygen level so they had no real way to monitor her and her nurse (who ended up being a friend of mine from high school who I had not seen in years) decided that if I was okay and felt like baby girl was okay then we could go home, needless to say we were out the door. My parents and brother were hungry and going to cracker barrel, I was just going home until I hear "cup" and "bite" from back seat. Baby girl ate two eggs and grits (like I said tough as nails!)

They had here on several antibotics at first and one for seven days. Well after just three days of not being on any antibotic we have infection AGAIN! I called the doctor and he put us back on the antibotic drops in the ear and was told "She just has bad ears and will hopefully outgrow it"

This breaks my heart for two reasons

1) this is the main reason- I hate for her to not be well and there not be anything I can do.

2)surgeries are not free (my insurance is yucky) and we have done this twice in less than 9 months and she is no better now than she was before either

I pray daily that she will turn the corner where this is concerned. I know I am so blessed to have such a happy baby and could be worse and I thank God for her being so tough, because I turn into a big baby when I have get an ear infection and what mine are like pale in comparrison to hers.

On a completely different note baby girl and I went shopping with a friend of mine. I love handbags, but have never bought a name brand/trendy bag until this weekend. Here it is and I am so excited to get to carry it this spring and summer!

What A DAY!

I took a vacation day yesterday because I had a lot to do and also 4 days to use before March 1, so I started the day with the accountant doing TAXES--FUN!

Later Monday morning I got a call from my attorney saying my divorce was final.

HERE is A little background--1)I did NOT want the DIVORCE! 2)yes this was my second marriage, the first one was at a REALLY young age and neither of us knew who we were much less what we were to each other after it ended I got back in church and met #2 through a good friend. He was active in his church and you could see God working in his life. We started having what I would call "average problems" but he left and took an out of control spiral that has caused him to be away for a while.

SO my response was "okay, thank you!" I have just kinda become numb to the above situation. I know God will go with me wherever I go (Joshua 1:9), even if sometimes I am outside out of his perfect will he loves me and will work everything to GOOD!

next stop was immunizations for Sophie, and after making payment arrangements two weeks ago for the open balance on her account the Billing/Insurance lady came out in front of the whole office and announced how much I owed and wanted to know if I would be making a payment today. I wanted to cry and got angry with #2 (see above) I kept it together long enough to quietly explain that the details of my payment arrangement was documented on the chart and I would honor that agreement, but no I would not be paying anything today since her immunizations are covered 100% (medical insurance is awful at least from my company $1200 deductible before it pays anything -- it does pay 100% for wellness check ups, so you can go to the doctor as long as you are not sick)

Last stop- lets call it final straw before my little breakdown!
Sophie had follow up with ENT doctor, We can not get her ears clear. For months now they have been draining really gross stuff. She is such a trooper though, no fever or crying with pain so we have just been treating the symptoms and going on. The Doctor decided we needed to be more aggressive because even though she does not seem bothered by the infections it is not good to go on like this, SO we are having our second set of tubes in the ears and Adenoids removed Friday morning (did I mention my GREAT Insurance and #2 not around)

I made it home and got kids to bed before I had myself a good cry.

J

Friends are GREAT!

Yesterday was a blah day for me. Thursday seems to be the only night where I am not running in so many directions and usually I look forward to my quite night at home, but yesterday at work I was starting to dread the evening (Sophie is in bed no later than 8 if we are home and J.T. disappears to his room for his TV time around the same time). All of my close friends are like me chasing kids, homework, laundry, dinner and the list goes on so I do not call people that often just to chat because I am lonely or bored (please do not think I am being snobby or anything, I just do not want to be a bother to others). Last night I got two phone calls and had a text conversation with a third friend last night almost back to back and it was great to have that time that I was dreading filled with catching up with someone I have not spoken to in 6 months, getting the latest info from a friend from work, and a conversation with one of those great Christian people I admire most. I thank God for sending each of those people to me last night. I needed each of those conversations last night and I thank God for being all knowing and loving me.

J

MONDAY was A Monday

Things have changed a little at work, due the economy. We are one less person in my department, no one has lost their job (THANK YOU JESUS!). We have an employee out on medical leave so someone from my department is filling in in that department and praying things get better during this time.

I worked through lunch yesterday to leave early (after a crazy day with no lunch hour) because JT had dentist appointment. We eat early (old people Early) no later than 6 at my house because my kids are STARVING when we get home, well since JT did not finish at the dentist till 5 and we were 45 minutes from home and I did not cook anything this morning (yes I cook dinner in the mornings-- how else could we eat by 6 when I do not get off til 5) SO we had mexican MY FAVORITE! I could eat Mexican everyday.

This is Sophie eating SALSA-- it was all her's at this point because she was double and triple dipping.

first post!

I turned 30 last week and was not looking forward to it. Reason being, Had we had a conversation on how my 29th year on this earth would be. My answer be very different than how the year actually went. Now being 30 years + a few days I have decided to look at my glass as 1/2 full. I know GOD has great things in store if I will only trust him and not put my 2 cents in and mess the whole thing up.